Morning Pages and Overall Writing Update

 Yesterday morning, I didn't get to do my morning pages in my journal. It took me forever to wake up, and by the time I was fully awake, my attention got hijacked. I ended up getting dressed, making a breakfast run to McDonald's, then going to work. While there, I got the idea to turn my MP entry into a blog post, and while I was at it give an update on how the whole morning pages thing is going. So I started this post but never finished it. When I got home, I decided to just go ahead and do a journal entry and call it an "afternoon page." But I didn't want to just delete this post; I still wanted to do the update. So here I am, and I've decided to throw in an overall writing update while I'm at it.

I'm still going strong as far as doing MPs every day. I haven't missed a single day since I started back in September. That is a real accomplishment for me! But lemme tell ya, the reason I haven't missed is bc I am VERY lenient with myself. Many, many days have entries of just a few words and a big scribble down the page. But that counts! There have also been days when I didn't get to it till the afternoon or evening, and that's okay too. All that matters is that I'm doing it.

But as far as what I really want to write...I have been getting absolutely nowhere. The AW tasks? Still sitting in drafts. Still haven't gotten past Week 1. My stories? I just cannot get into them like I used to, as much as I want to SO bad.

Sarra Cannon is doing another Rough Draft Challenge in April. I grabbed the free workbook bc why not? But I have no idea at this point if I'm actually going to do it. The last one I counted as a success even though I didn't technically "finish" it. My only goal was to reconnect with my writing, which I did. But now...? Do I want to do that again, or try to do something else with it? Either way, I want it to be fun, otherwise forget it.

I know one of my biggest issues is my YouTube addiction. Right now as I'm writing this, I'm feeling the urge to go click on that bookmark, and I will most definitely be doing that after I hit Publish on this post. I know myself. No point in denying it.

But I have got to find a way to replace at least some of my YouTube time with writing time. Without making it feel forced.

About a week or so ago, I dusted off my old A5 writing binder I'd bought from Amazon a few years ago. I played with it just for the hell of it. Took out some dividers, rearranged the ones I left in, and kind of fixed it up a little. I toyed with the idea of bringing it out of retirement, and one thing I've thought about doing is printing the RDC workbook and putting it in there.

And this idea just now hit me--what if instead of the April 2026 one (or in addition to it), I print the undated one, LAMINATE it, and put it in there? Make it reusable?

Or maybe print it full size and use the discbound one?

All I know is that change needs to happen somewhere. Something's gotta give. This blog is evidence of how long I've been struggling with this, the ups and downs. I need to do SOMETHING.

Part of it is my mental and physical health, too. It's all jumbled together. One big mess I need to sort thru. And I'm trying to do that.

I went to the doctor Tuesday for the first time in forever. Had to bc I was suffering from a yeast infection (yuck, sorry, I know that's TMI). But I also kind of got the ball rolling on trying to get my overall health back on track. The good news is I've lost 20 pounds since the last time I went to the doctor! That shocked me. I haven't even done anything other than try to watch what I eat (and pretty much fail at that). But of course my sugar is still high, so I've got to get back on meds asap.

My mental health is definitely connected to my physical health. I know if I can improve one, the other will follow.

Holy shit it just hit me. I could use the RDC for working on MY HEALTH! The way she has set up the RDC, you can use it for whatever you want, not just writing. OMG that could work!!!

Now I don't want to overwhelm myself bc I know how that will go. But yeah! I can make a walking goal, a self-care goal, AND a writing goal. Keep it simple. Don't go crazy with it. But small changes work.

Yep, I'm doing that!

Okay, so that's my update. Yes, I'm still going to watch YouTube for now, but I am also going to figure out how I want to print the workbook and go from there. Bye for now!